I didn't know you also felt this way. I don't even know if I ever really articulated it to myself...
I can't say I have any longing or real connection to physical life / earth... though I know you do, I can feel it from you. You feel like... nature. I feel like I'm from a realm that was more spirit than physical.
And, I’m sorry for the billion replies, but I wanted to mention one last thing. It doesn’t always feel so glorious. Not always golden and sunshine and love.
Sometimes it’s a suffocating loneliness where you feel like you’re being hung by your own soul, barely able to breathe. Sometimes it feels like a bird in a heavy storm, flying aimlessly. Sometimes I feel like if I let go, my soul WILL fly away, but there’s always that last thread to re-mend it to myself.
Every day I find it very strange & cumbersome to have a body. Fortunately I'm in good physical health so it's not about chronic pain or anything like that.
The people around me are interested & engaged with the physical world, and most of the time I can't even try to care about these things. What's most real for me is in a different realm... of emotion & spirit. I'm more fulfilled by things like sitting in meditation, dreaming, connecting with someone in silence. Sometimes I wake up from dreams and they feel more important & nourishing than anything that happened in my day. I feel like a stranger in a strange land every day on earth. But I believe I chose to come here (i.e. be incarnated on Earth) and so I remain curious as to why, and show up as best I can to create a fulfilling life and be of service in a meaningful way. But every single day, it feels like I concede "okay, I'm here, I guess let's play this game"
That’s really interesting… the “stranger” part I relate to heavily. This really makes sense of my view of you, because you always do seem so detached (not in a bad way). You feel like you’re on a higher vibration that cannot be heard by most. I can’t hear it, but I can feel it come from you. I bet you have extremely interesting dreams. I don’t dream at all unless it’s a prophesy or a warning. What are your dreams like?
I don't know how to talk about my dreams in a general way, but sometimes I wake up & feel like I worked out a bunch of stuff in my dreams, or as if I get some kind of nutrition from them. These realms feel more real to me than physical life. So I can understand what you mean when you say you it's hard to be present here sometimes...
It’s hard to explain, but it’s like a “soul-wound” as Zion put it. I can physically feel my spirit and soul, and I can physically feel others too, but not always. There is this physical pouring out and attachment, like a never-ending cup of golden shimmer. It’s so real sometimes. When I am in nature, I feel my spirit sinking through my feet and longing to return, to be in and a part of the dirt (not in a scary way! It’s a good, sad feeling) I usually “see” it as my golden spirit shooting into the dirt as swirls, dancing with the earth.
The earth is our mother, and I feel very connected spiritually to her.
There is such an even distribution of longing, one side to the divine, the other to the earth. It’s like a flower opening. It’s like violins and a babbling stream.
This is a hard one... I don't think I've learned to do this. Feel like a big part of myself is floating around in the spirit realm and my physical avatar is down here like "....????........"
It’s so hard!!!! I’m not good at it. I get so lost in the past and the future. I think I’ve come to accept that I am not returning right now, so I must focus on living and getting better while I’m here. I’m here to do SOMETHING, I just don’t know what.
I totally relate here. I haven’t met anyone else with that “longing”
It can get so crushing, doesn’t it? I’m always homesick, for a place I have never physically been.
My spirit longs for heaven, yet my physical longs for the earth. My two spirits are at odds with each other.
It’s so strong I feel it physically some days.
I didn't know you also felt this way. I don't even know if I ever really articulated it to myself...
I can't say I have any longing or real connection to physical life / earth... though I know you do, I can feel it from you. You feel like... nature. I feel like I'm from a realm that was more spirit than physical.
What is It like when you feel it physically?
And, I’m sorry for the billion replies, but I wanted to mention one last thing. It doesn’t always feel so glorious. Not always golden and sunshine and love.
Sometimes it’s a suffocating loneliness where you feel like you’re being hung by your own soul, barely able to breathe. Sometimes it feels like a bird in a heavy storm, flying aimlessly. Sometimes I feel like if I let go, my soul WILL fly away, but there’s always that last thread to re-mend it to myself.
This reminded me of the end of a poem I recently read by Rilke:
...My soul has no garden, no bed,
it hangs on my twisted skeleton
and, terrified, flaps its wings.
That’s good.
How does that feel for you, being more spirit than nature?
Every day I find it very strange & cumbersome to have a body. Fortunately I'm in good physical health so it's not about chronic pain or anything like that.
The people around me are interested & engaged with the physical world, and most of the time I can't even try to care about these things. What's most real for me is in a different realm... of emotion & spirit. I'm more fulfilled by things like sitting in meditation, dreaming, connecting with someone in silence. Sometimes I wake up from dreams and they feel more important & nourishing than anything that happened in my day. I feel like a stranger in a strange land every day on earth. But I believe I chose to come here (i.e. be incarnated on Earth) and so I remain curious as to why, and show up as best I can to create a fulfilling life and be of service in a meaningful way. But every single day, it feels like I concede "okay, I'm here, I guess let's play this game"
That’s really interesting… the “stranger” part I relate to heavily. This really makes sense of my view of you, because you always do seem so detached (not in a bad way). You feel like you’re on a higher vibration that cannot be heard by most. I can’t hear it, but I can feel it come from you. I bet you have extremely interesting dreams. I don’t dream at all unless it’s a prophesy or a warning. What are your dreams like?
You are a fascinating mirror
I don't know how to talk about my dreams in a general way, but sometimes I wake up & feel like I worked out a bunch of stuff in my dreams, or as if I get some kind of nutrition from them. These realms feel more real to me than physical life. So I can understand what you mean when you say you it's hard to be present here sometimes...
That’s very interesting
It’s hard to explain, but it’s like a “soul-wound” as Zion put it. I can physically feel my spirit and soul, and I can physically feel others too, but not always. There is this physical pouring out and attachment, like a never-ending cup of golden shimmer. It’s so real sometimes. When I am in nature, I feel my spirit sinking through my feet and longing to return, to be in and a part of the dirt (not in a scary way! It’s a good, sad feeling) I usually “see” it as my golden spirit shooting into the dirt as swirls, dancing with the earth.
The earth is our mother, and I feel very connected spiritually to her.
😭 You are definitely not from here
There is such an even distribution of longing, one side to the divine, the other to the earth. It’s like a flower opening. It’s like violins and a babbling stream.
You should really write poetry (:
I do, rarely- they never see the light of day 😂✨
I have to remind myself to enjoy the present and live now, instead of being consumed by the ever-longing.
This is a hard one... I don't think I've learned to do this. Feel like a big part of myself is floating around in the spirit realm and my physical avatar is down here like "....????........"
It’s so hard!!!! I’m not good at it. I get so lost in the past and the future. I think I’ve come to accept that I am not returning right now, so I must focus on living and getting better while I’m here. I’m here to do SOMETHING, I just don’t know what.